Sunday, November 23, 2008

Losing control is so underrated.

 It's amazing to me how much meaning & emotion these little items can hold.  Dreams, anxiety, happiness, joy, excitement, responsibility.  Yes, these are the keys to our new home.  
 If you had told me exactly 2 years, 3 months, and 6 days ago that I would be preparing to move in to a house with my husband right now, I would have looked at you like you had brussel sprouts for eyeballs.   It's just another amazing reminder to me at how perfect God's plan is. 
    I will be the first one to admit (as my husband will attest) that I can be controlling at times.  Ok, most of the time.  I like to have things my way, I don't like surprises, and I like to have a plan of action.  None of this fly-by-the-seat-of-your-pants and "we'll figure it out later" crap.
 Which is probably exactly why my life has been directed the way that it has.  Just when I think I'm in control, I get a gentle, or sometimes not so gentle reminder that He is.
It's been a very hard lesson for me to learn, and by no means have I aced the test.  But I think I have gotten a little bit better.  Our wedding was a great test for me. 
 I knew exactly how I wanted everything to look, but I resigned myself early on that there was no way I could do everything by myself.  And that was ok.  And everything turned out more beautiful than I could ever have imagined, thanks to the hard work of my family & friends. And quite a lot of help from Upstairs.
  So, as I prepare myself for a 3rd story move-out (for those of you who know what I mean, I am truly sorry but thank you in advance for your help), and a new beginning in a place that my husband and I can call our own (well sort of, I'm sure the bank would have something to say about that),  I am ready to give up all control to God and trust that He will take care of us, provide for us, and lead us on the right path.  
And when I forget, I will have this post to come back to and remind me.   :)

9 comments:

jr said...

I'm totally okay with you keeping this blog, but if you cover your head with a handkerchief I am NEVER going to visit. ;)

Gooseshooter said...

You bought a house!? Just kidding, I'm starting to take my pain killers now in preparation for the move.

Anonymous said...

So you come by the controlling thing rightly enough. I am delighted for you guys as you proceed with the house and your marriage (not necessarily in that order Ü) We're here to help anytime! Love you both - Mom

The Mullens said...

Your house looks darling, you guys and we well remember the excitement of buying, fixing up and moving in to our first home! Have tons of fun ... and congratulations! Love, Auntie Nan

KathyB. said...

What a beautiful header for your blog, I am partial to blue you know, and even better, what a touching post. Your words of thankfulness are wonderful and so very seasonal !

Congratulations you two ! Can't wait to see your new home. Oh, BTW, think you might be needing an active , little red puppy for your new yard ?

p.s. jr, why would she be wearing a hanky ?

A. Joy said...

Hey! Your blog is BEAUTIFUL! Love the photos, I assume Mr. Wooley is in a state of shock and hiding in a cupboard somewhere - or - is frantically packing boxes and trying his hardest to shred newspaper with his tiny clawless feet to put around the breakables in order to make himself look usefull enough to take along to the house. Congrats on the new house and I've strapped one kid to each arm while I wear out my 'stair stepper ' to prepare my already muscular thighs and Tom has used the upcoming move 'event' as an excuse to go do MORE climbing up mountains in search of little birdies to shoot. See you soon! ( call us when you need us! )

jr said...

I'm disappointed, I thought you'd have us moving you into a thirty story high rise this time. ;)

Wilson Clan said...

I completely understand the control issue...I have them too. Adam keeps reminding me. :S We're looking forward to seeing the house!!!!! :)

Lanny said...

I love the new blog, I love the new house. I'm so excited for all of you! Ain't change great!!